Im tired of the 2ww?

I had Af on 16th March... Its our first time of trying.....ttc on 28th & 29th March..should have came on sun 13th april..nothing..took a preg test on sun 13th and mon 14th - both negative....I had cramps from about 1st-7th april..unlike anything ive had before..all very mild.. Ive never missed af before..but all my 'pregnancy ocioated symptoms' have gone'..I had spotting on sunday 13th April but still nothing but im still testing negative...huff